ladycriminelle

Again, I haven't posted in about a month. I hate that. I always want to post, then I always get distracted. I'm so busy lately that it's hard to find time to post...then when I have free time, I realize that I ought to be posting, and I'm always too lazy. I WILL be better from now on.Joseph ended three weeks ago. It was wonderful. I haven't really had time to miss it. I do miss it, but not as much as I expected to. It didn't even really seem wierd when it ended. Fiddler did. I suppose because I had so much to fill up my time in the last three weeks. Plus, because of Singers, makeup and Thespians, I haven't lost the people in the cast. I still see most of them quite often. I know for sure now that I want to do musical theater in college. The dance show, Aladdin, is tomorrow. I'm the most proud of the makeup that I have ever been. It looks awesome, and I'm running it all by myself. My classes are going okay. I was sick for two days last week with a horrible ear infection, so catching up has been kinda tough, but I'm almost done. I'm spending more time with Peter lately, and talking to him on the phone more. That makes me happy. I've missed him a lot lately. Over the last few months he drifted away a lot, and seemed like he would always rather be with other people than with me. I'm scared I'm going to lose him to Erin or Calla. We had our first interim meeting today! It was really exciting. Peter and I are partner's for our project. We're doing French Cuisine!! I also asked Sarah Gottard to room with me. She's really nice, and pretty smart. She's North Korea in MAP, and because I'm China, we debate on the same side often. She's good. Donovan is leaving in slightly over a month. I'm scared of how it will go. I KNOW that I'll want to stay together, but I'm scared that if he starts to doubt us, and he's halfway around the world, I can't do anything. I think it will be okay though. As of now, I really want to be with him for as long as I can imagine. I love him so much. Things have been up and down with us lately. They haven't been horrible at all. They've either been wonderful or okay/kind of bad. More towards wonderful though. There are just some days where we get so stressed that we snap at eachother. It's maybe once a week. So that's not so bad. I really need to get in shape. I'm about twenty pounds more than I should be. And once I lose that twenty, I want to lose another ten or fifteen. Slowly though. I've been seriously contemplating throwing up again. It scares me when I do that. I keep thinking that I can control it again...throw up on my own terms, as much as I want to, and stop when I've lost twenty pounds. Technically, I wasn't so out of control with it a year ago. Logically, I know it's wrong, but I can't seem to convince myself that it's so bad. Oh well. We'll see how dieting goes.We have a Singers performance on Saturday. I'm really excited for it! We're singing on Orchard Road for the Light Up ceremony, the opening of Christmas celebrations, when they light the tree and the lights on Orchard. President Nathan will be there! I'm really looking forward to it. But first I have to get through the dance show...

Stayed home today...bad earache and mild tonsilitus or however you spell it. The doctor told me to be careful because your ears are where you balance, and that's why the room kept spinning. So I stayed in bed today and caught up on much needed rest. It was good...very unproductive and lazy. I needed that. I slept a lot. I kept thinking that if I slept, my ear would stop hurting. Now on to do some catching up on my work...and cleaning my room!